I'm Tired,,

A friend once told if you keep giving yourself to other people and allowing them to take small pieces of you , you'll have nothing left . i disregarded that advice , i thought that friends deserve the effort and its okay to sometimes put your wants and needs in second place ,, after all thats what friendship is ,, its good to treat people the way you want them to treat you but its totally wrong to expect them to do so .

Don't get me wrong , i do not hate my friends at all ,in fact after the little fix i was in i love few of them even more ( yes you my gazawy friend) ,true friends value your space , your time , and know when you are tired just by looking at you ,, i have a few true friends , but i realised i have few friends with high morals , friends who understand !!

As for you "others" , fuck you , really fuck you , i'll no longer allow you to ride on my back and just have your way ,, its not worth it , why should i try so hard to entertain you , help you with your problems , do anything if your not appreciating it , and now you think its is my DUTY to do that !! you don't have to say thank you ,, but you should feel that i must do it ! i have a busier life than yours , i have lots of shit to do everyday i can hardly keep up , i hardly have time for myself ,, why should i give an ungreatful son of a bitch like you !! yil3an 5ara !!Humans are just too self centered ,, maybe i'm a fool because i expected to act otherwise sometimes