Confession

"tell me more ,, all of the pointless stories you have , let me dream while you tell them , let me dream that one day when your done telling your stories , i'll be brave enough to tell you i love you"

Thinking 3

* When you work at a company your simply providing labor in exchange of capital , your selling your time for your salary , therefore during your time that is owned by other people you should look the way they want you to look , talk the way they want you to talk , and do the things that they want you to do , if you want to do something that you want to do you must asked for a personal leave that will be deducted from your annual vacations , simply because you have already sold that time and no one wants to pay you to do your personal stuff .

* I realized that i do not love anything that i do during the course of the day , when i am home i am already drained and tired because of my work , and usually in a very bad mood , they say thats how you feel at the beginning then things get back to normal and you accept how things work .

* I need something new to do , or to learn , sometimes following a routine is good and relaxing , by lately my routine became stressful , a normal day starts with going to work , i don't really like my job and i don't like the people i work with , i take breaks at work by either going to the bathroom or calling my girlfriend , usually she is feeling sad and tired which does not help make my mood better because we talk about how she is feeling and i just get back to my desk feeling more stressed , at my lunch break i eat with a couple of guys from a different department , they are nice but they just don't talk , when it is time to leave work i wait for a cab usually for half an hour or so , then am home i eat , change my clothes , sometimes i study , i call my girlfriend , she cries , i go to bed , then wake up and go to work again . My life was not like that before , but for some reason i do not see a purpose of doing anything these days , people tell me to wait , i am waiting either way , but this is not what i wanted to be 3 years ago .

Thinking 2

* An ethical man will chose to face the consequences of his actions , when he is wrong he will try to correct what he has done and accept the punishment for the damage he has done , even if the punishment can be avoided , even if he does not have to correct what he has done ,, a logical man will only try to benefit himself and after doing that benefit other people , therefore he knows that punishments and consequences are not necessary if they can be avoided and if he can what he wants with facing them .

* If you are hungry you eat , you find an apple while your hungry you eat it , if you find an apple while your hungry but you can not buy it but you can steal and no one would notice you should not take it , it is not ethical to do that , it is ethical to starve to death than to steal , while it is logical to eat if you are hungry .

* If someone is upsetting it is ethical to smile and understand what they are going through , it is ethical to hold your feelings in and not speak what is going on your mind , while it is logical to push away harm and anything that is upsetting you .

* An ethical man does good for good's sake , a logical man does good for the benefits he will reap from it

Thinking

* I am what i am today because of what i decided to be yesterday , i am sure i had good reasons on that day .

* One of the things i have to learn is to accept my redundancy , i should get satisfaction from the minimal effect i have on the small sample that surrounds me , i should learn to accept that i do not matter .

* I have been waiting for at least 8 years , i am not denying that life gave me breaks , but i never found what i am looking for , maybe because i started looking before even knowing what that is , i can say that i tried almost everything , i have only two things left to try , if they did not work i will most probably tell god that i quit .

* I almost pin pointed the time that i want to go back in time to , the date , the time , the hour , not sure about the minute , but am close enough to that , for the first time in my life i am regretful , and for some reason i left a record on that day , maybe to teach myself a lesson , or maybe because of my nature of ruining anything that is beautiful .

* I like this new feeling of nothingness , i am trying to maintain it more , to be able to control it , emotions in general are useless and misleading , getting rid of them will make us more logical therefore we will be able to achieve more and get rid of deficiencies , such as half of the human race .

* Capitalism will not collapse , will not fall , the world is different than what it used to be back at the days of the soviet union , the economies of the world are integrated more then ever , so integrated that competitors depend on each other , and the collapse of the west will mean the collapse of the east , that is why they will not allow it , that is why the big are shaking hands while the small and vile are fucking each other .

* Humans in general are disgusting and useless , why does God love such creatures ? i can see that we are entertaining , but in the same time we are more frustrating.