Thinking 3

* When you work at a company your simply providing labor in exchange of capital , your selling your time for your salary , therefore during your time that is owned by other people you should look the way they want you to look , talk the way they want you to talk , and do the things that they want you to do , if you want to do something that you want to do you must asked for a personal leave that will be deducted from your annual vacations , simply because you have already sold that time and no one wants to pay you to do your personal stuff .

* I realized that i do not love anything that i do during the course of the day , when i am home i am already drained and tired because of my work , and usually in a very bad mood , they say thats how you feel at the beginning then things get back to normal and you accept how things work .

* I need something new to do , or to learn , sometimes following a routine is good and relaxing , by lately my routine became stressful , a normal day starts with going to work , i don't really like my job and i don't like the people i work with , i take breaks at work by either going to the bathroom or calling my girlfriend , usually she is feeling sad and tired which does not help make my mood better because we talk about how she is feeling and i just get back to my desk feeling more stressed , at my lunch break i eat with a couple of guys from a different department , they are nice but they just don't talk , when it is time to leave work i wait for a cab usually for half an hour or so , then am home i eat , change my clothes , sometimes i study , i call my girlfriend , she cries , i go to bed , then wake up and go to work again . My life was not like that before , but for some reason i do not see a purpose of doing anything these days , people tell me to wait , i am waiting either way , but this is not what i wanted to be 3 years ago .